Cette annee:

2009

[PEOPLE]
best friends: Ryan, Kaylie, Hannah, Rachel
lost any friends: yes.
gained any friends: yes.


[PLACES]
went out of the country: yes.
how many times on an airplane: 4.
[YOU]
have you changed: yes. maybe. not sure. less than last year, I think.
new look: technically, my hair color has returned to how it was last January. Which is weird.
most depressed time this year: August...A bit of November...Pretty happy year, I think.

best time this year: Spring, probably. Yes. The end of school. April, May, June.

[LOVE]
did you get heartbroken: no. Not in a boy sense, at least.
who was your summer love: Ryan.

[SEASONS]
favorite Season: Spring!
least favourite: Winter.

[FINAL QUESTIONS]
got arrested: No. Only stopped by the police in Cuba. EEE.

had a crush: is it called that anymore?
got dumped: no. well, by rachel a few times. but she loves me. probably.

lost a family member: yes.
got bad grades: mmm...probably a bit. but its me, so, you know. 
got a myspace: no. far too confusing. and american.
kept a secret: probably. 
told a secret: yes.
snuck out: no. i'd be too frightened to wander hawkwood's hostile nighttime streets.
gotten in trouble: yes.
done something you totally regret: yes, a few.

In 2009 I... 

[  ] broke a promise.
[x] made a new best friend.
[  ] fallen out of love.
[x] lied.
[ ] went behind your parents back.
[ ] cried over a broken heart.
[x] disappointed someone close.
[x] hid a secret.
[x] pretended to be happy.
[x] kissed in the rain.
[x] slept under the stars.
[ ] kept your new years resolution.
[x] forgot your new years resolution.
[x] met someone who changed my life.
[ ] met one of your idols.
[x] changed your outlook on life.
[ ] sat home all day doing nothing.
[x] pretended to be sick.
[x] left the country.
[ ] almost died.
[ ] given up something important to you.
[ ] lost something expensive.
[x] learned something new about yourself.
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.
[x] made a change in your life.
[x] found out who your true friends were.
[x] met great people.
[ ] stayed up until sunrise.
[ ] pigged out over the summer.
[x] cried over the silliest thing.
[x] got into a car accident.
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you.
[x] had someone close to me die.
[x] had a high cell phone bill.
[ ] wasted most of my money on food.
[ ] had a fist fight.
[x] went to the beach.
[ ] saw a celebrity.
[x] gotten sick.
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time.
[x] became closer to a lot of people

With 2008 coming to an end have you:

1. Have you had any relationships this year? yes. only a few, though. haha..
2. Have you had your birthday yet? yes.
3. Cried yet? yes.
4. Been on a diet? only a diet of supernatural and berry smoothies...

5. Pulled an all nighter? I'm bad at those, usually we (whoever we is, respectively) fall asleep around 2 or 3...actually, in cuba we did. yes.
6. Drank Starbucks? yes. eggnog lattes with kaylie = peace on earth.
7. Went Camping? yes. with kaylie! that wasn't camping, though. that was trailering and talking around a campfire until 4-ing. <3
8. Bought something(s)? yes.
9. Met someone special? yes, i have. not in the usual special sense though, ryan's been around too long for meeting this year...

10. Been out of province? yes.
11. What are you thinking about? dry eyes, contact lenses, seeing kaylie, hugging ryan. doing this again next year.

12. Hugged someone? yes.
13. Slept in someone elses bed? yes. many a person's, considering my parents left me for awhile...kaylie's heated mattress. =D
14. Got a job? yes.

15. Loaned out money? no.

16. Gotten in a car accident? small one.
17. Gone over your cell phone bill? ....only a little...
18. Been called a whore? don't think so.
19. Done something you regret? yes. but not too many things. here i come.


2010

Une histoire

"...When I saw you dancing that day, I saw something else. I saw a new world coming rapidly. More scientific, efficient, yes. More cures for the old sicknesses. Very good. But a harsh, cruel world. And I saw a little girl, her eyes tightly closed, holding to her breast the old kind of world, one that she knew in her heart could not remain, and she was holding it and pleading, never to let her go. That is what I saw. It wasn't really you, what you were doing, I know that. But I saw you and it broke my heart. And I've never forgotten."

-Kazuo Ishiguro, Never Let Me Go

C'est le temps de ramasser:

It is time to clean up. Clean up after everything is all done with 2009.
I have to say, Christmas was a quite grand affair here in Edmonton. I got to see both halves of my family, as well as receieve beautiful gifts, as well as eat enough to counter all the progress I made on my Wii Fit. I love Christmas, and half the fun is in the extensive build-up, and the Boxing Day shopping; so here I come, mall...

More to come.

<3

Bonhommes de neige

Ah, Christmas in Alberta.
You know, it's probably one of the better places to have Christmas.
As much as I dislike the cold, it really lacks in Christmas-ness when there is no snow...
Regardless.

Accomplishments of this week (so far):
- Watched Thumbelina (highlight of my week, almost better than Christmas.)
- Gotten pretty presents from my boyfriend/best friend
- Watched a frustratingly cheesy and undeniably awesome musical with Hannah and Kaylie
- Spent many an hour on Wii fit trying to be not fat for when I go back to dance
- Sang a lot
- Bugged Ryan
- Gone Christmas shopping

Actually, I thought that list was going to be a lot shorter and more interesting than it was.

Bizarre Thought Du Jour:
If you die in a motorcycle accident, but you really like motorcycles, will you have motorcycles in heaven?

Tout c'que je veux...

La paix, dans la monde
Et mon coeur
Et dans ma famille...

Does anyone remember that song?
Musical awesome.
From Kidnergarten on.


So, I love Christmas. I love the lights, and the trees, and the lights on the trees, and the cookies (although I am eating too many of them), and the boyfriends by the trees with lights on them, and the presents under the trees by the boyfriends with lights on them (the trees, not the boyfriends), and the lazy fatness, and the things like that. And the Christmas carols, and movies, and time for painting again, as well as watching How I Met Your Mother online non-stop, and the return of the sisters, and the fairy doll Katie gave me, and how my bangs are starting to look less funny for the holidays. Did I mention the cookies? Om, nom, nom...
Also, did I mention how much I agree with Rachel Schneider's blog about stupid people? Lately, Rachel Schneider and I have been increasingly bitter towards a large portion of the world. This is a product of the catalyst called 'Chemistry', a reaction that should be averted at all times. You see, our teacher drives us crazy. So does the world. Astrid agrees with us. (So we MUST be right.) When she is the communist leader of Cuba, she will use her worldly influence and her nuclear weapons (which she will have attained through non-chemical ways) to abolish chemistry from the curriculums, school boards, minds, and hearts of this dreary population. It is going to happen.
But that doesn't matter. Well, it does.
But more to the point:
Christmas.
Last night, there was an Abe Music Christmas Party. Needless to say, it was awesome.
Today, I put in my contacts without them pinching or poking or dancing in my eye. Needless to say, they too are feeling the Christmas spirit.
Also, I vacuumed my room for what seems like the first time in about a year. Needless to say, that's gross, but I'm still alive, therefore proving the point that cleanliness is NOT next to godliness, and really just not all it's cracked up to be. What-EVER.

Anyways. It is far too late for such a senior citizen as me, but I figured I owed it to the 3 possibly 4 people who read my blog to do an update. Go me.
Also, Go Team. Also, Go Ryan, because he's funny.

(5 days and 1 hour.)

Nuage

Reason # 43:


Because when you think I can't see you looking at me, I can. And it makes me feel wonderful.

Et puis...

I don't want you to worry.


I love you too much.

La vie d'un glacon...

It's cold outside.

But it's NOT miserable.
Now, I hate being cold. It is like, the thing I hate most in this world, other than monkeys, chemistry teachers who do not set good examples, chemistry finals set by chemistry teachers who do net set good examples, and people who start their cars 10 minutes before they get in them just so that they will not have to suffer to agony of sitting in a cold car for tops, 2 minutes, and who are thus setting bad examples.
As I am on this topic, like, What The Hell. I cannot believe my chemistry teacher would tell us to remind him to go start his car when there was 10 minutes left in the period. People who do this are completely ignorant, self-absorbed, and generally smelly in a general sort of way. Especially people who, under further questioning, conclude that they do so because "They don't care." Rachel Schneider, I told my father about this incident and how everyone thought we were being unbelievably anal, and how Kieran told us that it was bad for the car to start it in cold weather and immediately drive it. Well, guess what, world, my father the mechanical engineer says NOT.
So you know what, world? SHUT OFF YOUR ENGINES.
(But not your furnaces. It is cold in this house.)

I have to admit, though, it is not that miserable outside- it is sunshining and sparkling and as long as I am not out IN the snow, I really have no qualms with it. What I am having repeated difficulties is this: recently, I was bored and decided, while watching How I Met Your Mother online, to doodle complex and haphazard motifs on my keyboard where my hand would rest while I am typing. Now, everytime I am typing, I get pen on me. This is ridiculous, especially because I have no Kleenex in my room to wipe it off with, because I ran out of Kleenex about 2 months ago.

The repetitive story of Kleenex boxes in Lyndsay's room:
- Dire need for Kleenex (i.e. more than half of my face covered in mascara, my arm is physically separated from my body and I need to stem the blood until the time that platelets aka thrombocytes react with thrombin, Ca ions, and vitamin K to produce fibrin threads over my open wound and catch erythrocytes and bacteria in its web and commence clotting. Go Biology.)
- Theft of Kleenex box from another part of the house
-Happy usage of aforementioned Kleenex for about a week
-Run out of Kleenex
-First reminder to fetch a new box: ignored
-Second reminder to fetch a new box: ignored
-Third reminder to fetch a new box: evaded
-Dire need for Kleenex

And that is how it goes.

My current pet peeve: PEOPLE COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW BUSY THEY ARE. Unless they legitimitely are, in which case I whine with them , instead of at them. Because I AM way too busy right now, under a lot of stress physically/emotionally/mentally, and am going insane. Like this conversation I had.
Lyndsay: No, I was just way too busy for this past month, I'm kind of glad I didn't do it.
Unnamed Unspeakable: I know what you mean! Same for me a few years ago.
Lyndsay: (Curses and judges U.U in her mind because she knows this is a lie. I have always disliked you, U.U)

Unless you dance or do other physical activities every day after school, are in grade 10 piano (which you may be skivving off of because YOU DONT HAVE TIME) as well as sing, come home and do homework until midnight because you have two sciences, english ap and social studies in french this semester, and then wake up at 6:00 am, and then not get to sleep in for the past 2 months even on weekends, STOP COMPLAINING.
Yes, I am a nasty, grumpy, terrible person.

Happy Holidays.
(Oh, GOD, soon, soon...)

Je ne peux pas voir la lumiere.

Today:

I'm not afraid of anything.

To you, and you, and you you, and you...
 :I love you.
:I miss you.
:You're driving everyone crazy.
:I wish I was more like you.
:I can't make myself a hypocrite.
:You are a spectacular friend.
:I wish I knew you a little better, could relate to you a little more.
:I wish I didn't, but I do.